"We're all in the same game; just different levels. In the same hell; just different devils."
- Dante's Inferno
- Dante's Inferno
Noctis
A broken mind, a broken heart
Character Profile
Name
Noctis Nickname Noct Gender Male Sexuality Unknown. He pushes everyone away so this remains a mystery. Age 19/Teen Birthday 7th of August Accessories n/a Family Vortal (father) Xenon (father) Ai (older brother) Theme song(s) The Lost One's Weeping - Neru Mind Brand - MARETU Human - Krewella Shinitai-chan - Switch |
"Life is full of misery, loneliness, and suffering - and it's all over much too soon."
Colour Codes
❤ Black : #0a0d14 ❤ Dark Grey : #17181d ❤ Grey : #57585a ❤ Light Grey : #9a9a9a ◇ ❤ Eye Light Teal : #26748b ❤ Eye Dark Teal : #05365e Species
Jelly Bean Dragon |
Optimist or pessimist
Pessimist. Cynicist. Pet peeve Obnoxiously bright and happy people. Others invading his personal space. People touching his possessions without asking. Bad habits Dismissive of people he deems uninteresting. Being completely unobservant and oblivious of his surroundings. Not knowing when his opinion won't be appreciated. Dream None. He believes dreams are a folly. Quirks/unique traits He is not the kind of bean you'd go to for advice. He is as socially inept as his father, awkward and unsure. Favourite colour(s) Black. Dark greys. Blue. Favourite music Anything that speaks to him emotionally. Typically prefers songs with faster beats. He is desperate to be distracted from his condition and emotions. Favourite food Red bean ice cream. |
Origins and Introductions
Noctis isn't entirely okay. He suffers from unipolar depression and anxiety. He displays most of the common mannerisms associated with these mental illnesses. He stays on the outer edges of social gatherings, or avoids them entirely when possible. And so on, and so forth...
Noctis, as a character, is burdened with carrying the weight of my personal problems on his back. This form of self-projection is a coping mechanism, much like art once was. But now that I find myself unable to draw, all this un-vented despair builds up with nowhere to go. And so I project myself onto Noct. Vortal experienced a little of this sort of thing when I first got him. It was, however, to a much lesser extent. He only ever got some aspects of my personality and a few of the smaller problems I have in life, and he has since grown from them (which I have not yet been able to). Noctis bears more serious marks of me in the form of his unipolar depression. I have struggled with this for over 4 years now and it begs to be given some shape or form. I've always been wanting in this regard, and while Vortal represents where I want to be, Noctis represents where I am.
Keep in mind though that he is not a sona. He is his own character. He will grow and change independent from me. His personality and health are actually very different to mine. He's his own boy.
Keep in mind though that he is not a sona. He is his own character. He will grow and change independent from me. His personality and health are actually very different to mine. He's his own boy.
Noctis' Teen Ref
Original Design by The Paper Angel
Original Design by The Paper Angel
"We shall draw from the heart of suffering itself the means of inspiration and survival."
Personality
Noctis has little patience, and is prone to sass and brooding. He doesn't necessarily hide his hurt, but he doesn't really talk about it either. He doesn't hide his relationship with his family, and he will answer any questions if asked.
All Noct needs is someone patient enough to draw him out of his shell. They don't necessarily need to be especially pushy, in fact, maybe he needs someone who isn't. Noctis subconsciously craves contact with others even if he would deny it. He'll seek you out himself if he decides he likes you well enough. All he needs is a little push.
Deep down he wishes his one remaining family member would talk to him at all. It hurts.
All Noct needs is someone patient enough to draw him out of his shell. They don't necessarily need to be especially pushy, in fact, maybe he needs someone who isn't. Noctis subconsciously craves contact with others even if he would deny it. He'll seek you out himself if he decides he likes you well enough. All he needs is a little push.
Deep down he wishes his one remaining family member would talk to him at all. It hurts.
Life
Noctis suffers from unipolar depression and anxiety. He doesn't trust easily, since he feels that all those around him have abandoned him.
He is self-taught, and so his education is somewhat lacking in topics that he doesn't like. He has good english and is well read but his knowledge in things like history and politics is non-existent.
He is self-taught, and so his education is somewhat lacking in topics that he doesn't like. He has good english and is well read but his knowledge in things like history and politics is non-existent.
History
One of his fathers ran out on the family a few years ago. His remaining father withdrew into his own shell as a result, leaving his children to somewhat fend for themselves. Noct's elder brother ran away from home and he has not seen him since.
Noctis tried to remain emotionally detached during these times; it was his body's way of protecting him from that which would break him.
Noctis tried to remain emotionally detached during these times; it was his body's way of protecting him from that which would break him.
Gallery
"I wish the world would fall away."
"Character cannot be developed in ease and quiet. Only through experience of trial and suffering can the soul be strengthened, ambition inspired, and success achieved."